The same thing happens yet again. I have two choices. Do what I did before. or walk away. From what happened the last time, I learnt my friends are mostly always accurate in their judgement. So the obvious choice would be to take a different action. which is to walk away.
But its so difficult to do. I feel stepped on again and to walk away from it without trying to establish the reasons behind his actions..is just difficult. He may just be fooling around. But then again, why would he do that? I sincerely regarded him as a friend. maybe he doesn't. But its two yrs plus of friendship. not a few donkey months. Or is he just masking his real emotions as a defence mechanism? Whatever it is. I've tried to be normal around him. But he thinks i've a hidden agenda in everything I say and do. I give up. Its already difficult enough to face him. let alone carry on nonchalent conversations with him.
I give up trying to communicate. He's not letting me in. I'll just stand outside and wait.
